just a Girl.

held captive by the belief of freedom.
you are deceived by the perception of bravery.
behind fearless determination stands nothing more than this girl.

Freedom...

i felt when you caught me.

we flew. dancing over hurdles.

forever grateful. enlightened by your innocence.

Homesick.

For a place I have never been. One that I do not yet know.
homesick.
For a place that does not exist.
homesick.
For a place?
homesick.
For more.

Essence of a Woman:

Love and honesty.

A childlike innocence, easily hurt and honest enough to unintentionally hurt others.

A womanly acceptance of the fact that everyone is imperfect and most of the time love is all we have to hold on to.

Motivation?

What motivates?
You. Me. Anyone.

What is motivation anyway?
I need some...

mo·ti·vate
-verb (used with object), -vat·ed, -vat·ing.

to provide with a motive or motives; incite; impel.

—Synonyms induce, move, provoke, prompt, cause.

Well... I currently have none of that... It sounds like I need a cause; to be provoked; someone please prompt me before I sink further into this murky darkness, the un-inspirational place I am forced to call home. These yellowed walls seem to be moving in on me today; same as they were yesterday. Each day is same as the last, with one exception. I think the days are getting longer. The time I am at work busting my ass for eight dollars an hour seems to be increasing each day. How can that be? I'm not getting paid more. This I know.

So I need out. I need more. More inspiration, motivation, and money. Where can that be found? Where can all this be found? I'm not sure, but I know it's not here. So what's next?